Exhaustion

I'm exhausted. I've actually been getting better sleep in the last few days than I have for quite a while, but maybe it's catching up with me. I realized that I didn't post anything last night...I went in my room shortly after 10 (pretty early for me) to get ready for my bed. Woke up 45 minutes later when I got a text from my friend--fully clothed and with the lights on.

Tonight, we went to dinner with a group from church. Got home about seven and tried reading books with the girls. Kiandra read us one and I got through about 2 more books before I fell asleep on the couch.

I have homework to do, but I think it might be almost pointless. We'll see if I can comprehend anything. Otherwise, I'm turning in early. Really early.

And no, I am absolutely not pregnant. Completely, physically, totally impossible. Unless we're talking immaculate conception. But I still don't think so. ;) I'm just really, really tired.

November already?!

In keeping with my goal to write something every day, here I am! However, I have a horrible headache, and I'm not quite sure what I'm going to write about just yet.

I am homeschooling Kiandra. It is her "kindergarten" year. We are having a lot of fun with it and it's so awesome to see her learning. I do not use a specific curriculum, and in fact, lean very much towards "unschooling." I attempt to do something structured almost every day, but the reality lately has been that it doesn't always happen. And when I saw "structure" I mean like 20 minutes of structure.

And amazingly (well, not really if you follow the theories behind unschooling) Kiandra started reading a couple weeks ago. She's been able to sound out words a little bit for quite some time, but she is really reading now. Of course, it's still books like "The Sad Cat" but she is getting to the harder ones and is really picking it up. I'm just so proud of her, and so excited to see her read. I hope that she enjoys it as much as I do and that reading will be a favorite activity for her for years to come.

Another post

It's a little bit hard for me to write on here. The thing is, I have SO many thoughts going through my head on a daily basis, that it's hard to pick what to write about. So, my goal is to try to write once a day so that maybe it'll be easier to narrow down.

Topic on my mind right now? A massage.

I've been having pretty bad headaches for the last few months. In September, they'd gotten really unbearable, and I'd also started noticing some blurred vision and sensitivity to light. Perhaps I watch too much ER and Grey's Anatomy, but it kind of freaked me out. So, I made an appointment with my doctor, just to make sure it wasn't something more serious. And to find out how I might be able to combat them, because even 4 ibuprofen were not touching the pain (and I never take meds, so it wasn't like I'd built up a tolerance to them or something).

I went to the doctor, and he did an exam and said it wasn't anything scary like a tumor or anything. He knows my "life situation" and therefore knows the amount of stress I'm under and diagnosed me with stress headaches. He said that as soon as I noticed one coming on I should take 4 ibuprofen AND 2 tylenol at the same time. Wowza. He also said I need to get a massage once or twice a month. Umm, can I get a prescription for that? (Seriously, I've been told some insurances cover this. I doubt mine does but it is something I'm going to check into!)

I have a sweet friend that gave me a gift certificate for a 30 minute massage. I haven't had a chance to get it yet, but my headaches have been coming with more frequency again so I'm going to try to get that done next week. I'm a bit nervous! I've heard of toxins and stuff being released into your body if you haven't had a massage before (or in a long time). Is my face going to break out worse than it already is? Am I going to get a rash or sores on my body, or get sick? I guess I shall see!

I will have to update after I get my massage. I met the lady that will do it last week and she seemed really sweet. Hopefully it helps, and if it does, I really hope my insurance will cover more!!

Steven Curtis Chapman

As I'm sure everyone knows, Steven Curtis Chapman's daughter was struck by a car driven by her older brother and killed in May. I read the basics in the news, mostly just the headlines, at the time. Sometimes, I am on so much emotional overload that I simply cannot read details about things like this tragedy.

Tonight, a friend posted a youtube video on Facebook. The video was SCC and his wife's interview with Larry King. I am in the middle of it, and keep having to take breaks. It is just so...heartbreaking. And amazing. And inspiring. I simply cannot fathom enduring a tragedy such as this one. My oldest daughter, Kiandra, is five. To think of life without her is--well, I really can't even think about it. I only hope that if I ever have to go through such an awful thing, that I can make it through. The Chapman family continues to be in my prayers, as I'm sure they still deal with this daily; even hourly.

So I was thinking...

Perhaps I shouldn't be doing that!

I thought it would be fun to have a blog that's just for me. A place for me to write my thoughts and feelings--a place different from my "family blog" (which I don't keep up very well at all). Sometimes I may write about the craziness of my life, maybe my thoughts on a political issues, or just random thoughts I have.

So, join me for the ride. I look forward to writing and sharing my thoughts!