Tomorrow

Tomorrow would have been my 6th wedding anniversary. Instead, I've been separated for almost a year and a half, divorced for 7 months. Last year, when it was to be our 5th annivesary, it was hard. I thought several weeks ahead of time how we should have been planning a night or weekend away. So, my parents offered to fly me (and Kiersten) to Idaho for the weekend to see my sister and brother and their spouses. It was a nice weekend.

Even though we were separated last year, and it was harder than this year, this year is still hard. Last year at this time I was still holding out hope that we would work things out. David was still considering working things out. This year, it's final...we're divorced.

I was scheduled for the nursery tomorrow, and anticipated that I might do better if I was able to be in the church service to worship and pray and be able to soak up God's love. I found a sub, which fell through, but I've found a few other people willing to fill in for me.

This life is often lonely. I am surrounded by people, surrounded by people who love me and care for me SO much. But it can still be lonely. BUT I'm getting it through it...one week, one day, sometimes one hour at a time. And I will keep on keepin' on because that's what I do, and that's all I can do.